Tremendously prodigy

February 11, 2014 at 12:15pm
0 notes

So i havent told you anything lately right?
Here i am stuck in my mind since days ago. The story starts right behind my fluffy smile. Kaja!
So it was last saturday night, where i enjoyed my every tiny moment with my beloved girl. We went to watch a basketball championship or competition. Yah sort of, but since it finished too late and we havent eat anything since noon, we are eating at a street fendor that serves some kinds of hot soup. Soo in the end we were definitely late and cannot go back to my dormitory since it has its night rules. So we decided to stay in a 24 hours fastfood restauran. Or people usually call this kfc.
We ordered a hazelnut coffee and a cookies and cream donnut. Since i had a huge appetite, i ordered a bento and a medium-sized soft drink. And we are starting to bluff over everything since we cant meet frequently in the future. And there were those guys in the outdoor look at our direction that actually made me losing my appetite. I dont know what they actually looking at, but it is really disturbing.
And minutes later a boy came to me wearing a red tshirt and dimpled. YAP DIMPLED. I tried to look cool.
He asked about dbl and soon (since he knew we just watched dbl, there was a mark on our hand)
And asked for my name, my school, and looks like he knew one of my college mate.  And i just answered anything without asking any single question. And ended up feeling enormously fooled for revealing anything by answering the question honestly. I dont know why but even now, he is the one i am curious about and i think about him a lot the moment i woke up and went to sleep. Who are you, really? And how dare you change my interest lately?

January 26, 2014 at 6:58pm
0 notes

What’s so good about today?

Today, I am literally 19 and alive!

Alhamdulillah thanks a lot, I can’t describe my feelings now. Huehehehehe

But, I didnt find anything that special since hours ago. Ah, looks like I am expecting something too much :)

But me, personally happy because the one I admire say those happy birthday stuff, yup not the first but I am extremely excited.

So far, they are just my international relations mates. Ah, thanks guys. wkwkwkkw I never expect that much though today has not ended yet. There are still hours to say those stuff :P

hahaha thanks to fitri and calis :3 love you to the moon and back. And I am still waiting for beldin, kansha, astrid, mila, maul, ismul, susul, igke, auk, and more. Oh god, I still waiting for my bunches best friends-_- Where are you guys :P

No, just kidding. But, literally and sincerely I hope for your best prayer for our successfulness. Let’s be the one who changes Indonesia into a whole new world. We can do this, guys. What I expected during my 19?


I want to achieve an outstanding academic result during my 1st and 2nd and the next semester until I graduate from International Relations Universitas Gadjah Mada (literally not Gadjah Mada University)

I want to go abroad literally this year. Aamiin

I can make those plans come true, not just a written plan, just like a real actions. I really do those lans correctly and continuously.

I can fall in love with someone worth to be fell in love with. *ini gimana sih nggie grammarnya acak kadut*

 I want to have business, I can make my own money. I can be more independent.

I want to be with my best friends and bismillah we wont having any trouble ahead.

I want to be skinnier, and thinner. You know, I am literally fat right now. Oh, this is so bad. I can’t live healthy by eating those food that increase my body weight. I should have eaten something more healthy like vegetables. -__-

I hope I can meet Skandar Keynes and he will fall in love with me in the first sight sincerely. Aaak <3

I will meet my budhe wati after years apart kekekekek Aamiin

I will touch snow :3

but, the important point is not those above (expect outstanding academic results) Another important point is, We all can live happily ever after, no more dying children, no more uneducated human being, no more corruption, no more poverty, no more nuclear weapons (since its dangerous impact to our existence and enviroment), no more floods, earthquake, tsunamis, or things like that. I will extremely enjoying peace, or be a peacemaker :) Literally.

Aamiin, Alhamdulillah thanks for every single things You’ve given to me my Lord. This, everything I had now and then are the best things. I Love you :* 

January 8, 2014 at 9:12am
0 notes

I am boasting again.

Tomorrow I have a test. PLNDRI! Wohoo *looks like I am happy, but please I am really not.*

And I am simply crazeh tonight because I really want to write something definitely insane, something crucial enough, something annoying that turns my mood instantly every time I think about it.

I am actually wondering about people these days. The majority who can move on so so so so easily, while I am stuck for thousand times everytime I try to stride out of the circumstances. Pathetic, eh

And the fact that we don’t have any mutual feeling. Every Time something big gonna hit my day, that fact apparently came out. Whether it’s me or him the one that doesn’t have mutual feeling. The point is, It is hard for me to fall for someone who has fallen for me. Oh man, how could I say this pathetic phrase. But i am sure, I’ve looked like idiots for talking about this nonsense fact since minutes ago, so I will just continue this definitely unimportant boasting.

The fact is, I can’t see my future because I still enjoy my past. Let me just say I hope to live on my past even it is really embarrassing or sort of. HUAHAHAHA I am laughing so hard right now, seeing how silly I live as a human being.

It hurts my heart everytime I see my self on the mirror, expecting something toooooooo much that I know it would never happen. 

But the thing is, I have Allah. So, whether it is pathetic or not I look cherish every single moment :)

And still, one day I’ll definitely be the one you expected to be with, dear you. It is just not the perfect moment yet.  NO NO NO just kidding -_-

December 30, 2013 at 3:22am
12,847 notes
Reblogged from honeybeekim

Six ways to earn even after death


  • Give a copy of quran to someone. Each time one reads from it, you gain.
  • Donate a wheelchair to a hospital. Each time sick person uses it, you gain.
  • Participate in building a masjid.
  • Place watercooler in a public place.
  • Plant a tree. You gain whenever a person or animal sits in its shade or eats from it.
  • And the easiest of all, share this message with people. Even 1 applies any of the above, you gain.

(via nabiilabee)

December 6, 2013 at 1:05pm
0 notes

Raisa - Firasat
Kemarin kulihat awan membentuk wajahmu
Desau angin meniupkan namamu

Ich vermisse dich
I miss you, for real.
I am relieved right now, for almost every single tiny thing in life that was happened.

Firasat ini…
Rasa rindukah atau pertanda bahaya
Aku tak peduli ku tetap berlari.

Cepat pulang…
Cepat kembali jangan pergi lagi….

November 12, 2013 at 10:39pm
0 notes

illfeel bisa merebak kapan aja kok.

Sometimes I could be a human with no humanity. Whenever my instinct motivate me to be one. Don’t have to be worry, simply talking sarcastic. No humanity in talking sarcastic once you drove me crazy. Not crazy because of you, crazy because silently thinking why we have to met.

November 7, 2013 at 2:26pm
0 notes


HAHAHA what a classic joke, dear :)

November 3, 2013 at 9:19am
0 notes

Dingin ya.
Memang sedingin ini ya.

Kok tiba tiba saya merindu?
Rindu pada seorang pelukis kenangan. Rindu pada seorang rentenir perhatian.

Siapa lagi kalau bukan….
Ah lupakan, saya baru saja membual.

"Kata kata yang sedikit gila, tapi ini adanya"

"Ku bahagia kau telah terlahir di dunia. Dan kau ada diantara milyaran manusia. Dan ku bisa dengan RADARku menemukanmu"

October 19, 2013 at 3:02pm
0 notes

Jangan tanya kenapa. Tapi untuk saat ini saya memang sedang tidak berminat menjalin hubungan spesial dengan siapapun, kecuali….

Allah SWT 

Tanggung jawab saya sebagai seorang muslim masih banyak, dan saya rasa untuk saat ini saya takut tidak bisa membagi cinta saya dengan adil. Dan, bukankah terlalu egois untuk saat ini dalam keadaan yang masih labil dan tidak pasti saya lancang mengambil keputusan untuk membagi fokus pikiran saya untuk seseorang?

Mungkin terdengar klasik dan berlebihan. Tapi, saya benar benar tidak tertarik sama sekali untuk menjalani sebuah hubungan dalam waktu dekat ini. Karena tanggung jawab saya sebagai hamba yang masih panjang.

Biarkan saya mencintai Allah hingga sempurna, dan baru saya akan berusaha membangun hubungan dengan seseorang. Toh, saya tidak mau merusak citra saya yang telah saya bangun selama ini. Citra sebagai seseorang yang tidak pernah menjalin hubungan dengan siapapun sejak lahir. Saat ini beginilah keadaanya. Entah dua atau tiga bulan lagi

Allah Maha membolak balikan hati…

October 16, 2013 at 10:30am
0 notes


Wed, October 16th ’13

Masih dengan suhu dan orang yang sama. Yaitu saya

Malam ini kerinduan saya akan petrichor terbayar sudah. Ini adalah pertama kalinya saya mencium wangi petrichor Jogja dan dalam kondisi yang sama, masih stuck dengan belitan belitan tugas yang simpel tapi saya rasa saya terlalu berlebihan karena deadline masih 3 jam lagi, dan saya hanya memandang kosong layar laptop saya yang menampilkan ms. Word kosong melompong.

Bau petrichor disini sedikit berbeda, entah kenapa. Petrichor di Semarang lebih semerbak dan tajam. Lebih indah dan manis. Mungkin karena suhu di Semarang sudah setara dengan oven yang siap membakar kulit anda tiap kali tersentuh cahaya matahari.

Dan yang jelas, petrichor di Semarang lebih berbeda. Entah kenapa setiap saya mencium petrichor selalu terbesit cerita-cerita lalu. Selalu… Dan mungkin itu alasan kenapa saya sangat menyukai hujan malam hari tanpa listrik padam. Atau lebih tepatnya, merasakan hujan malam hari dengan petrichor yang berbau tajam dan saya yang berada di luar ruangan dengan orang terkasih. Indah..

Tentunya bukan dengan kekasih saya, lhawong saya hidup meny-singel sejak lahir. Saat ini sepertinya “masih” belum tertarik dalam menjalin hubungan.

Terlepas dengan lokasi dan umur, semuanya masih sama. Saat saat petrichor tertahan di pangkal hidung, semua kenangan, perasaan, kerinduan, masih sama sejak tiga tahun lalu. Sama persis.

Bedanya, kita berdua tidak bisa mencium petrichor dalam rentan waktu yang sama. Bedanya, ketika saya disini sibuk menyesap petrichor entah anda sibuk bermain dengan apa. Bedanya, ketika saya asik merangkai kata untuk tulisan di tumblr sayaa, entah anda mungkin sudah tertidur pulas. Malam :)