February 11, 2014 at 12:15pm
So i havent told you anything lately right?
Here i am stuck in my mind since days ago. The story starts right behind my fluffy smile. Kaja!
So it was last saturday night, where i enjoyed my every tiny moment with my beloved girl. We went to watch a basketball championship or competition. Yah sort of, but since it finished too late and we havent eat anything since noon, we are eating at a street fendor that serves some kinds of hot soup. Soo in the end we were definitely late and cannot go back to my dormitory since it has its night rules. So we decided to stay in a 24 hours fastfood restauran. Or people usually call this kfc.
We ordered a hazelnut coffee and a cookies and cream donnut. Since i had a huge appetite, i ordered a bento and a medium-sized soft drink. And we are starting to bluff over everything since we cant meet frequently in the future. And there were those guys in the outdoor look at our direction that actually made me losing my appetite. I dont know what they actually looking at, but it is really disturbing.
And minutes later a boy came to me wearing a red tshirt and dimpled. YAP DIMPLED. I tried to look cool.
He asked about dbl and soon (since he knew we just watched dbl, there was a mark on our hand)
And asked for my name, my school, and looks like he knew one of my college mate. And i just answered anything without asking any single question. And ended up feeling enormously fooled for revealing anything by answering the question honestly. I dont know why but even now, he is the one i am curious about and i think about him a lot the moment i woke up and went to sleep. Who are you, really? And how dare you change my interest lately?
What’s so good about today?
Today, I am literally 19 and alive!
Alhamdulillah thanks a lot, I can’t describe my feelings now. Huehehehehe
But, I didnt find anything that special since hours ago. Ah, looks like I am expecting something too much :)
But me, personally happy because the one I admire say those happy birthday stuff, yup not the first but I am extremely excited.
So far, they are just my international relations mates. Ah, thanks guys. wkwkwkkw I never expect that much though today has not ended yet. There are still hours to say those stuff :P
hahaha thanks to fitri and calis :3 love you to the moon and back. And I am still waiting for beldin, kansha, astrid, mila, maul, ismul, susul, igke, auk, and more. Oh god, I still waiting for my bunches best friends-_- Where are you guys :P
No, just kidding. But, literally and sincerely I hope for your best prayer for our successfulness. Let’s be the one who changes Indonesia into a whole new world. We can do this, guys. What I expected during my 19?
I want to achieve an outstanding academic result during my 1st and 2nd and the next semester until I graduate from International Relations Universitas Gadjah Mada (literally not Gadjah Mada University)
I want to go abroad literally this year. Aamiin
I can make those plans come true, not just a written plan, just like a real actions. I really do those lans correctly and continuously.
I can fall in love with different person. Or you can say, move on. HUAHAHAHAHAHHA this is silly -_- just kidding. Errr, mmm, I mean no, I am serious.
I want to have business, I can make my own money. I can be more independent.
I want to be with my best friends and bismillah we wont having any trouble ahead.
I want to be skinnier, and thinner. You know, I am literally fat right now. Oh, this is so bad. I can’t live healthy by eating those food that increase my body weight. I should have eaten something more healthy like vegetables. -__-
I hope I can meet Skandar Keynes and he will fall in love with me in the first sight sincerely. Aaak <3
I will meet my budhe wati after years apart kekekekek Aamiin
I will touch snow :3
but, the important point is not those above (expect outstanding academic results) Another important point is, We all can live happily ever after, no more dying children, no more uneducated human being, no more corruption, no more poverty, no more nuclear weapons (since its dangerous impact to our existence and enviroment), no more floods, earthquake, tsunamis, or things like that. I will extremely enjoying peace, or be a peacemaker :) Literally.
Aamiin, Alhamdulillah thanks for every single things You’ve given to me my Lord. This, everything I had now and then are the best things. I Love you :*
January 12, 2014 at 11:03am
Screw me, my bad mood moment.
I really hate it, when I am enjoying my self-time with no doubt and suddenly something come for no reason disturbing my me-time. Like:
When I am watching movies, don’t talk to me or ask me anything
When I am listening to the music, don’t talk something not so important to me
When I am studying, please respect I don’t really enjoy something noisy
When I am eating, do not intervene. It is not my habit to eat with someone else. Even I know them, I’d like to share food. But, it is a no to intervene me while i am eating, I rather buy you a new one than you ask me for my food. The point is, I just don’t really like those guys who beg for everything just for their own business.
When I am praying, please would you just realize? Please respect, I bring those thick carpet for me to pray, why would you even intervene and let me pray in front of bathroom? Are you enjoying everything by yourself now?
When I cook the rice, please just realize, don’t pick those well-cooked-rice by your hand. Nowadays there are those things that called spoon. I don’t care you will take that rice or not, the thing I care is please be hygienic.
Do you know why I prefer to be independent on buying stuff than to ask for someone’s stuff and intervene them? because, it is annoying to be intervened. I just feel a little bit annoyed when someone take the advantage of others for their self. Not to be selfish, please unity is beautiful, but being intervened? that is not even the way to unite.
And be responsible, after using goods or things you should have been taking care of. I was just thinking, sometimes it is rude If I had to clean up your trash after you borrow my things. Am I even a maid now?
Oh sorry It seems a bit harsh and offensive. But, one thing you should know about me is that sometime I was just tired of my routinity. And one thing you should know is I am mad and upset and sick of things when I am writing this. Definitely, my deepest heart.
I am boasting again.
Tomorrow I have a test. PLNDRI! Wohoo *looks like I am happy, but please I am really not.*
And I am simply crazeh tonight because I really want to write something definitely insane, something crucial enough, something annoying that turns my mood instantly every time I think about it.
I am actually wondering about people these days. The majority who can move on so so so so easily, while I am stuck for thousand times everytime I try to stride out of the circumstances. Pathetic, eh
And the fact that we don’t have any mutual feeling. Every Time something big gonna hit my day, that fact apparently came out. Whether it’s me or him the one that doesn’t have mutual feeling. The point is, It is hard for me to fall for someone who has fallen for me. Oh man, how could I say this pathetic phrase. But i am sure, I’ve looked like idiots for talking about this nonsense fact since minutes ago, so I will just continue this definitely unimportant boasting.
The fact is, I can’t see my future because I still enjoy my past. Let me just say I hope to live on my past even it is really embarrassing or sort of. HUAHAHAHA I am laughing so hard right now, seeing how silly I live as a human being.
It hurts my heart everytime I see my self on the mirror, expecting something toooooooo much that I know it would never happen.
But the thing is, I have Allah. So, whether it is pathetic or not I look cherish every single moment :)
And still, one day I’ll definitely be the one you expected to be with, dear you. It is just not the perfect moment yet. NO NO NO just kidding -_-
Six ways to earn even after death
- Give a copy of quran to someone. Each time one reads from it, you gain.
- Donate a wheelchair to a hospital. Each time sick person uses it, you gain.
- Participate in building a masjid.
- Place watercooler in a public place.
- Plant a tree. You gain whenever a person or animal sits in its shade or eats from it.
- And the easiest of all, share this message with people. Even 1 applies any of the above, you gain.
Saya mau curhat lagi nih
and still, saya gak peduli dengan mereka yang bilang curhat di dunia maya sama aja curhat pake toa. Toh, in the end what I want is, membiarkan mereka yang tidak sengaja membaca curhatan saya or simply for those who want to know curcol saya.
Vital sih bahasannya, pertemanan terselubung. Yap, that’s your own authority to decide whether it is my own life or not. But, I write this just because I want to tell you, what I see from my point of view.
Simple sih, what I want to say is…
Ketika dalam suatu pertemanan timbul benih benih cinta, yang mendorong mereka untuk selalu bertemu bersama hampir tiap ada kesempatan. Dan, dimanfaatkan oleh mereka yang menyimpan rasa dengan yang lain untuk suatu kegiatan oportunis dimana secara tidak langsung memanfaatkan esensi kumpul “pertemanan” menjadi “pdkt”. Your own life sih, bukan hidup saya. Cuma ngelihatnya, kasihan orang yang masuk dalam circle pertemanan tersebut yang kemudian jadi sisa sisa orang yang tersedia dan gak ngerti mau ngapain.
Profesional aja dalam milah milih cinta sama temen, pinter pinter nempatin diri aja kapan saat sama temen kapan saat pdkt. Enggak berarti oportunis buat kepentingan pribadi. Egois sekali anda ketika oportunis karena esensi pengen berduaan. :)
Just saying aja, gak nyindir dan enggak curhat masalah pribadi. This is what I got just now thinking about how epic life was.
Dan tolong jangan cemburu ketika anda bahkan tidak memiliki andil terhadap siapapun, kasihan yang anda cemburuin dan kasihan orang yang bikin anda cemburu, both of them.
Bikin illfeel, geli, jijik tahu. Sadar diri aja :) terserah mau dibilang kaya anak kecil. Yang penting mah jujur :)
FYI smiley diatas itu buat sarkastik aja ya
Raisa - Firasat
Kemarin kulihat awan membentuk wajahmu
Desau angin meniupkan namamu
Ich vermisse dich
I miss you, for real.
I am relieved right now, for almost every single tiny thing in life that was happened.
Rasa rindukah atau pertanda bahaya
Aku tak peduli ku tetap berlari.
Cepat kembali jangan pergi lagi….
December 3, 2013 at 10:31pm
This writtings is dedicated to you.
Not the same you as usual. The you who are not special and never gonna be special. The you i dont really like and will be the you i’ll never like.
I am honest and serious about what’s written in this post definitely above this sentence.
How could you be so stupid and silly about what you’ve done. Talking so easily about something offensive i insecure about and talk freely like you have the authority to claim anything. Dont be such thing, you’ve already looked pathetic and now you make yourself look like a man with no pride. No, sorry but i take my words back about you.
You are not gentleman
It’s just me who stupidly conclude those statement when i dont really know you that well and that much.
You’re such a child. You’re not even mature enough to be a teenager. How could you…. ah What a bump!
I am no one to judge you, but i have my own point of view you should have knew that it’s my right to share my own of view as the impact of press liberation.
Nope, even you lied or talked those nonsense stuff. You have to remember whether i believe you or not, it is me who decide. And i think you’re not that sensitif about anything. Dont you ever forget, you’re not the only one who born with those what people call miracle. Everyone born with it. Yes, everyone.
Good bye. Have a great life! :) i am so honour i could write what’s beyond my brain. Not an imagination :)
November 19, 2013 at 11:32am
Bukit bintang, 23:36 tue 19 Nov
Night. Cool night.
Loder - Royals is on my earphone right now. What a memory. Why those bunches of feeling bump me in sudden.
I miss you mom and dad.
I miss you sister and brother.
I am home soon, safely.
Being teased by all of you guys.
I miss Semarang for sure, the people, bedagan, the people, the people, and the people.
I miss Allah for sure. Everyday
November 14, 2013 at 9:49pm
hai @astridarsyana @belladinaa kanshabetha
anggik, angik, bonek sekarang lagi berbaring di tempat tidur. Ngerasa gak enak badan sama kaya beberapa bulan lalu di kosan bu Sari, ngerasa gak enak badan dan bolos sekolah. Padahal paling cuma radang tenggorokan sama percikan maag -_- terus aku semacam inget kalian berdua yang super so sweet dan baik banget :’)
Ketika dalam keadaan yang lemes gak bisa ngapa ngapain cuma diatas kasur, kalian tiba tiba dateng ke kosan bawain makanan dan tahu kalau dalam keadaan seperti itu aku bakal gak sanggup keluar beli makan sekalipun. Makasih ya malaikat-malaikatku yang super duper. Miss you so much deh.
Jujur detik itu juga aku pengen nangis loh, hiperbola sih. Tapi beneran kok, ternyata walaupun jauh dari keluarga aku masih ada kalian yang udah kaya keluarga sendiri :’) You are not my friend. Youre my sister. Definitely huhu kalian berdua ya, bikin Anggie gak betah di Jogja walaupun disini udah nemu yang super duper baik kaya kalian. Tapi, tetep atmosfirnya beda kalau sama kalian. Huehehehe
Seolah-olah dengan lirikan aja kalian udah ngerti aku mikirin apa. Mungkin kalau aku cowok aku bakal bingung milih satu diantara kalian bertiga :’) Terimakasih cimit cimitku yang super hebat :’) love you to the kitchen. Eh enggak deng, love you to the most far galaxy and back :’)